Puty's Journal

It’s been 2 weeks since my last post. I actually have many things to write, but then, I get busier everyday. Being busy is not an equal of being important, but somehow, I enjoy it. I just sometimes, worry whether I’ve turned myself into such shark, poor things that die when they stop moving.

Well as I said before, what am I busy about is not as big as developing nuclear technology or fighting poverty. I am just like everyone. Here and now is a phase when everyone is becoming someone. My friends are becoming chairmen or president or coordinator or head of bla bla bla. I decided to follow them: taking a part, and learning to handle responsibilities in a part of my life phase.

So I started becoming the public relation manager of LFM ITB, from last week. LFM ITB stands for Liga Film Mahasiswa Institut Teknologi Bandung. Here, we all love films and photography as much as blueberry cheesecake :D And if you do too, loving films and photography as much as __________ (put your favorite food in here), you can contact us, and let’s be friends :)

I know they would be hectic moments, but I’m sure they would create beautiful memories as well. So wish me luck and thanks for your patience :)
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“When you are asked if you can do a job, tell ‘em, ‘Certainly I can!’ Then get busy and find out how to do it.”
- Theodore Roosevelt

Promise me we will go to see the geyser, stay for a while, and you will name your son Harrison.

Promise me I will have no worry about consuming sugar, drawing on the wall, missing my high-school friends, owning more camera, or running a little vintage bookshop.

Promise me you will graduate, and when I do, you’d clap the loudest, and wait for me with the cliché; bouquet of flowers. You would smile, so would the flower seller. Then the pavements would surely be full.

Promise me then.

Last night was LFM Awards, and as always, we had fun. The best part was that I got ‘The Most Innovative Photographer’ award. It was given to me because I constantly use my honestly-awful-and-terribly-adorable plastic cameras for shooting the life. Thank you very very much :) :)

It reminded me on one of my dreams when I joined LFM ITB (Liga Film Mahasiswa ITB), when I just bought my first lomo, Diana; that I want to learn & develop alternative photography.

It’s been a year, or more, and I’m doing it. I fell in love. Then that dream seems starting to come true. Insya Allah, I will participate in Festival April 2010 Photo Exhibition, with my Diana black and white shots. The concept is about ‘Desiring Body’. It’ll be held in Goethe Haus, Jl. Sam Ratulangi, Jakarta from 13th to 17th of April 2010 :)

I’m really really excited. Please come there as the festival would be really artsy and out of the box I think :D

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The thing is actually not about how big the award or the exhibition. I read a lot of quotes about dreams. I listen a lot of songs and I saw some movies about them. You dream, it may just come true. I dream it, it may just come true. You dream to be famous, it may come true, but will it make you happy, you should start to think about it as well. You dream to be rich, it may come true, but is that it?

So dream wisely, people.

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“Be careful what you set your heart upon – for it will surely be yours.”
- James A. Baldwin

I’m a ‘man of my words’ type of girl. The written ones, the spoken ones.

I think all people should be responsible of their own words. Beautiful or bad, happy or sad. And I think, “I love you” is a really bold statement. It takes a lot of responsibilities. It takes time. In some cases, it takes a lifetime. For me, it is not only about letting a person know. This is one of my favorite piece of Jonathan Safran Foer’s novel, Extremely Loud Incredibly Close,

“She wants to know if I love her, that’s all anyone wants from anyone else, not love itself but the knowledge that love is there, like new batteries in the flashlight in the emergency kit in the hall closet.”

 

Brilliantly said.

I think many people say “I love you” a bit too easily. They say it loud, they make songs, they tweet it, they carve it on trees. It is not the point for me. There are too few of them, who keep the responsibilities. So, I decide to be careful. To say it less, so it wouldn’t be less special. To mean it, and keep it.

Instead, I say: “I’m happy. Let’s go to the zoo, or to the park, so we can play, and take pictures of our laugh.” Or, “I’m hungry, let’s have some sushi and green tea.”

:)