All posts tagged: letter

These Days

Dear Antariksa, I love you on sunny days and rainy days. I love your messy hair and how you smell in the morning. I love how easy it always is to distract you and how difficult it is to make you laugh. I love your smile that comes slowly and the sight of your gapped teeth. I love your impatience and your swinging appetite. I love your inability to sleep 12 hours straight or crawl when you are 7 months old like those babies on those shiny parenting books. I just love you. To me you are perfect. I hope that if you read this one day, you’ll give me a call. Because I might be sitting on the front porch remembering these days, when we both sat comfortably in silent, watching the rainfall. Love, Ibu

Shorter Letter

Antariksa, At night, when I look at you sleeping, I feel like writing a love letter. Long long letter. About the past, the present, and the future. About how scared I am and happy at the same time. About promises I might not be able to keep; to protect you from mosquitoes and bad news. About promises I hope I’m able to keep; to read more stories for you and to take you to Disneyland. About how sorry I am for being imperfect. About sad songs I used to play. About places I used to visit and people I used to meet. About how I feel so distant from everything else. Antariksa, I promise I’ll do my best, but maybe the long long letter must wait. Love, Ibu